Where You Water It
I've had a lot of thoughts running through my head like a hamster stuck in a wheel today and well, I decided to finally get them all out. Writing has always helped me sort out what I'm thinking, and maybe as you read it will help you sort out too. Hopefully it doesn't come out like too much of a jumbled mess and resonates with at least somebody out there. As much as I love posting fashion, this blog is a place for thoughts, rants, and writings just as much as it is for styling. That being said, here is tonights train of thought.
The grass is green where you water it. This is a phrase I have heard many times now, and one that I have always tried to keep at the forefront of my mind. It's been a good reminder to me on days that I wanna give up, take the easy way out, or just feel tired of all the hustling. In a nutshell, the last few weeks have been the epitome of that.
My life right now consists of a whole lot of good things going on, but definitely a whole lot of things. Between recording an album, writing, school, blog, styling for magazine, church, work, needed association with all my humans, and sleep here and there, there's been a lot of going and going and going. I've been learning that as easy as it would be to lose myself in the midst of all of this, it is also the perfect opportunity to further find myself. To find myself in the busy chaos, the long days and short sleeps, the going and going that feels like it doesn't slow down, and the endless task list that only continues to pile up. Each piece of what life consists of right now is a chance for me to learn something, or maybe on the flip side, be the one who is teaching. It's the time to see how watering the grass will make it grow greener.
I am fully aware that this time in life is one I will never have again. I'm at an age where dipping my toes in a lot of different pools is not only understood, but encouraged. To find out the things that truly make my heart come alive, try to weave them together, and then run with it. I get to explore different passions, try new things, and push myself to grow in skills and crafts that I have yet been able too. That being said, I have always believed that there is wisdom to be found in finding the things that you love, and doing them well. I get sad when I see people try to be good at everything under the sun, and end up being pulled in too many directions to truly master their select gifts. Find where your magic is, and be the absolute possible best at it.
I like to think that when this busy season comes to a slow I will look back and be so thankful at the roots that were planted in this time. The roots that will continue to be watered, maybe just not all at once like they are right now. To think that this is the time for me to build something that will only continue to grow is a beautiful thing. It helps make all the crazy seem a little bit more worth it. I'm thankful for the busy times in life, because it helps me to appreciate the seasons in between. I don't want to be scared of being busy. I want to embrace the challenge of finding rest within the season, instead of running from what I've been called to.
I serve a God who is Rest when I have none. He is Peace when life screams chaos. He is Strength when I am not. And most of all, He is the Joy and the Life that I want to emanate in all that I do.
Because of this, I can thrive in this season. I can open up my hands, let all that is before me right now gently fall into them, and carry them out with ease. Not because of who I am, but because of Who is alongside me.
So, all that to say, right now is my "water the grasses that make me giddy and that I love and see where it leads me too." I'm in the process of figuring out what my next steps look like, and as crazy as it feels, I'm loving it. I made a list this morning of some good questions to answer for yourself. Good ones to continue to come back to, as a reminder of the person you want to be and how to get there.
Who do I want to be?
What do I want to be remembered for?
What are the most important things to me, and how will I make the needed time for them?
What areas of grass am I going to choose to water?
Who are the people I need to love more?
How can I show Jesus more in all of this?
I will end with this thought.
I began to realize how important it is to be an enthusiast in life. If you are interested in something, go at it with full speed. Embrace it with both arms, hug it, love it, and become passionate about it. Lukewarm is no good.